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Monday, April 04, 2005

im kinda fed up wif my fuckin life rite now.. im so stressed out and i dunno wat to do.. but i dun care bout dat.. im juz wondering watz wrong wif aisyah..she's having probs of her own..i can tell by the looks on her face even though shez convinced dat i dunno anyting. Rite~ as if.. im juz as gd as her when it comes to finding out wat ppl are tryin to hide frm us.. cmon.. who is she trying to kid.. oh well.. cant force her to tell me everyting rite? i mean.. gif her a break..she's already stress out.. wif skool and her cca..and not forgetting her major probs at home.. i dun really noe watz going on..but im sure of one ting.. kit and i are always here by her side whenever she needs some cheering up..:D but like i said.. itz ok if u dun wanna tok bout it.. i understand.. but plz lah.. smile.. :) itz not dat hard.. ok ?

sigh..aniwayz, on friday, which was suppoz to be April's fools day, definately made me feel like an enormous fool.. itz not dat i was pranked or smth, itz juz dat i WAS feeling rather foolish.. dunno why..maybe bcoz itz the tak-pernah-jadi relationship between me n "dino".. i dun even feel like we are meant to be.. he's "nice" and all..but..( u see..in a "relationship" there's alwayz a "BUT"..) there's smth bout him im not sure about..he's not DAT fabulous..he's not DAT gd looking..well.. i dun really care bout dat..i never had..looks ARE not important.. aniwayz letz not get to dat.. dis "dino" person, he's verrrrrrrrryyyy nice..but like i said..i had doubts bout him.. he lied to me every now and then..he dun realised dat i noe.. ok..lemme tell u his mistakes.. p/s: if u wanna lie to me..u gotta be realistic.. DUhHH!!

first of all..last wednesday, i tink the date was 30th mar 05, we kinda made last minute arragements to meet up in front of my skool at 1 plus after skool.. he didnt noe how to get here, so i told him to take the mrt which is very convienent bcoz the khatib mrt station is juz arnd my skool area.. but i was told dat he was kinda broke at the moment.. i dunno wat bus he shud take frm his place to mine..i wasnt the "out-goinG' type..even if i was, i prefer taking the mrt.. :P aniwayz, it was 7.15 am at dat time n i was in the skool toilet..*ahem..datz our usual routine..every morning we meet, we will go toilet after dat, to sort of "touch up" ourselves before skool starts.. giRLSs wat~ * and we had to assemble at the parade square oredy..so i switch my hp to silent mode and kept it in my bag.. bla bla bla.. letz forward it to "after recess" at arnd 11.15 am...i checked my sms inbox n dino had sent me an sms.. he asked me wat bus to take frm town to yishun.. i didnt reply bcoz i tink dat time was math n my teacher was in class.. after a few periods later, he smsed again n he told me dat he cant meet me coz he was caught by the policed for smoking..i didnt reply...

i tot i was gonna skip my cca on dat day juz to meet him but itz too baaadd dat someone was doing smth agaisnt the law and uh, at dat time it was raining and i had sprained my ankle during hockey at P.E so i tot wat the heck~ i went for my cca aniwayz..

i got home quite late n did not checked my hp for msges watsoever.. i had a shower and then i slept..then he msged me. he wants to call me or smth i dun remember then i continued sleeping lah..penat pe..

then my house phone rang, i gumble and picked up.. guess who? him lah duh.. we tok..actually..he tok.. and i was like "hmMm.." , 'yea.." , "ooh..".. dat sort of tings.. i was kinda snobby at dat time, the fact dat i was fuckin tired and a call frm him was the last ting on my mind..plus i was kinda disappointed dat he had to LIE to me..i noe.. i can tell..im not really pissed at the first lie...itz the 2nd lie dat really ticks me off.. he told me dat reached at wlds (if i heard rite..not sure..too sleepyyy) beh die patah alek..y? bcoz he reached there too early.. eh..lemme rephrase dat if u dun understand.. he got there, but when home again bcoz he tot dat he reached there too early.. so..which one izzit? caught by the police or the reached there too early? waaaiiit.....wlds????? he was suppoz to meet me in front of my skool gate!!!! WTF....

to be continued... nak tgk ms congenality....... :D

current mood: excited plus geram... :P

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